First things first
This morning while I contemplated what the day should have in store for me, I remembered that someone in this house said that caramel rolls could be a daily occurrence at mealtime. Seeings that it has been four days since the cotton-candy-like cinnamon roll melted across my tongue, I decided to get the dough going after the kitchen clean up. So while the dough rises, I am thinking about all the quotes about bread.
While the earth’s voices can get you hooked on Panera bread, or sandwich shop commercials there is voice far more compelling. Deuteronomy 8:3 comes in the middle of a narrative about the Israelites journey through the wilderness. While I am not in a fourth year journey of desert land, there are days when I feel being blind and living in the country has given me a wilderness lifestyle that is akin to hermit living. But if I really wanted to get the analogy correct I could say that I am stuck between the walls of a Sinai monastery. But that’s pretty depressing.
Back to Deuteronomy.
When Jesus was in the wilderness for forty days, he was tempted three times. The first temptation was food. Issn’t that amazing? Most people find that it’s being alone that tempts them to eat the whole bag of chips. Or the half-gallon of ice cream. I’m not like that. I’m one of those people that could easily forget to eat. The day might stretch clear into the afternoon, before I realize that I haven’t had any lunch yet. Food is not my driving motivator. Which is good, because I can’t drive, and I would probably going to every fast-food emergency food establishment at my hour of need.
“Man live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that proceeds form the mouth of the Lord.” When bread is not the sustenance of the would, that what is?
This year at Christmas time, we were blessed to be ministered to by our daughter’s devotional from young adult retreat. It was a three part letter that the Camp where she worlds sent out during the week leading up to the Christmas worship season. While it was rather long, we did take the time to read each of the letter installments. Her ability to lead us into the season in awe and worshipful reverence was such a blessing. It’s that very thought provoking devotion that made me think about my goals for the new year.
First things first. Put first things first.
And the most important first thing in my life has been finding my sustenance in the words of our Lord. Jesus is the bread of life . He will be my everlasting manna during this journey into a visual wilderness that continues to make me feel lost.
When I look up to find a doorway or a wall instead of the way to where I thought I was going, I will remember that He is with me. When the dog comes out of the darkness of my peripheral black hole, I will find solid in Jesus. When my nose finally heels in its new crooked state, I will remember the brokenness that my Lord endured for me. While Jesus set his eyes on the way before him, knowing that the cross lie in his path, this I will remember when my path is interrupted by an opened cupboard door.
Being visually impaired and on the journey to blindness, I will put first things first. Though I refuse to use my walking cane in my own home, I will ask my Lord for grace to endure all the brokenness that comes from this journey. This year the Bible verse that I chose to be our family’s theme verse is Luke 1:37.
“For nothing will be impossible with God.”